Where the hell have I been?

It sucks when when you have to worry about money all the time. It sucks when you can't afford to do whatever the hell you want to do because you have to many bills to pay. Welcome to my life. Compared to some others, my life isn't actually that bad. I have a roof over my head, food to eat, nice car and a job that pays well.


I wrote this back in February. Some things haven't changed. While I still worry about money, I don't let it consume me like it used to. It's just not healthy.

My wife and I just bought a house about a month ago. Finally got out of the crappy townhouse and in to a real house. Feels good. Like I finally acomplished something with my life. I'm still tighter than I used to be with the cash flow, I'm just not letting myself lose sleep over whether I'm going to be able to pay the bills each month. I'll get a second job if I need too. I'm going to have fun when I can. Life's too short. I lost 2 friends in the last month to cancer. It's made me realize that I can't sit back and wonder "what if?" anymore. I can't and I won't. Because before I know it my time on this planet will be done. And I don't want any "what if's" when I go. It's "what the fuck?" time now.